You must find yourself out IN Bright
Updated: Sep 14
Adi Da: "I‘ve Communicated to you the uniqueness of this Way from the very beginning, but your grasping of it is slow. All experiencing, and all thinking for that matter, all conditionality, is a development of the self-contraction. It’s a development from a place of anxious dissociativeness, the ego, wanting to expand it’s sphere to feel better and better. And ultimately what will it discover in it’s own utter dissolution? The Divine Condition is to be discovered. But It is simply Reality from the beginning.
Egoity is self-contraction. It governs all of your life-absolutely every detail of it. It is inherently suffering because it is contraction, a strangulation, a shutting off, a disturbance. Therefore, you are motivated to seek. You are seeking to be relieved of that stress that is your own creation, to satisfy yourself out of it somehow, to enjoy yourself out of it somehow, by exploiting the capability for experiencing the modifications of Existence.
But still the sadhana is a matter of actually dealing with this dis-ease. In other words, the religious life, this Way in particular, is not about consolation merely and distraction and so forth, in the conventional sense, or ego-supporting sense. The process, moment to moment, goes beyond the self-contraction, particularly as hearing awakens. Thats when there is most profound understanding, knowing of this self-contraction, and that it is your own activity. But even the sadhana from the beginning is about going beyond this knot and not avoiding it through conventional-mindedness and consolation and such.
And unfortunately, you are stressfully identified with the fundamental modification, which is the self-contraction Its self, and all of It’s results, which is every kind of experiencing, or every kind of condition. So you live in the domain of egoity, presumed separate self, indulging in or otherwise suffering the modifications that come from presuming such a point of I’vew. It’s all a lie, because Natively, Inherently, you are already in the Condition That precedes all of that. You just don’t notice it. It’s not obvious to you, because you are indulging in the self-contraction and It’s results, and pursuing the search that comes from your dissatisfaction, having made that choice of self-contraction.
The self-contraction is the reality of your own creation. You’re bound to it naively. The naive realism of your experiencing is controlling your life. Apart from truly doing the sadhana I’ve Given you, all of that illusion is controlling your existence Its self. You are in a dream made of presumptions. You’re not Realizing the Truth, the Inherent Condition, My Very Person.
You’re in the position of egoity, self-contraction and naive realism, and the modifications of Reality. And you don’t know what is modified. You don’t know the Truth. You’re not in the position of Truth, and all you can do is guide yourself, pull yourself along by the ego, and complicate yourself further, and waste your life in seeking.
My fundamental argument relative to seeking and self-contraction, all the disciplines intact-that argument is very simple, very straightforward and it doesn’t take a genius other than Me to be effective. So, that could be three months. Literally six. I’m a fool saying you could take a year at it. It doesn’t take that long. The reason you all are taking so long is you don’t set Me as you Guru. My Word is not Law for you. You’re “self-possessed”, picking and choosing, doing your own thing. And so you never get your life act together. You’re never in a position to listen to Me to the point of hearing."
