This "Consideration Dialog" that Adi Da Blessed devotees with is an example of the kind of Process devotees must enter into in the Listening-Hearing foundation stages of practice in Adidam Ruchiradam. The telling of Leela's of Adi Da's Revelation of Submission, Instructing, Writing, Speaking with His devotee "coins" is the Eternal Agency whereby this Process humanly, functionally activates and incarnates as His Eternal Bright Reality Process. The Lessons of egoity, errors, stories of the illusions enacted by seekers, beginners and as advanced practitioners until the day of His Mahasamadhi, will serve all beings to grow in Bright Reality Being.
Duty, Tolerance, and self-Transcendence
A Discourse Given by Sri Da Avabhasa on December 12, 1992
DEVOTEE: Sri Gurudev, I feel such gratitude to You for making Yourself available to be with us. I feel the incomparable Grace that You, the Sat-Guru, are willing to gather with us and have this "consideration" with us. I feel such a profound need for all Your Gifts.
SRI DA AVABHASA: Fine. That is all safe enough to say. Now get down to it. If you only make speeches like this, you are not going to handle any business here at all. I just presume that you feel this way.
DEVOTEE: I realize that I need to go beyond my self-protectiveness in relationship with You. The very first time I ever spoke with You, in the Manner of Flowers in 1977, You asked me about my emotional-sexual history. I was known in the community at that time as being a pretty reserved person, and to be speaking with You about the intimate content of my life was quite out of character for me. But when You looked at me, all I could feel was that You saw me as I really am and not as the limitations that I presume. I felt completely free to confess the limitations that I assume because I knew that they were nothing to You. I could feel that You are here to release me from being bound by my own diversions.
SRI DA AVABHASA: It has been fifteen years since that conversation.
DEVOTEE: Yes, fifteen years.
SRI DA AVABHASA: And you are still in the same situation?
DEVOTEE: There is some sense in which it is true that I am still in the same situation, but there is also more than that. You have said that Your devotees are not liberated by stages, but directly, through feeling-Contemplation of You. I feel that I am not altogether in the same situation because I am Yours much more than I was then.
SRI DA AVABHASA: Tcha.
DEVOTEE: I feel that every opportunity to be with You that You Offer Your devotees is a profound Grace. I also feel that in this unique circumstance in Your direct Company, it is our obligation to be Your coins, to participate with You for the sake of all Your devotees. I thank You for this entire period of gathering. I want to thank You on behalf of all devotees for all this time in which You are gathering with us.
SRI DA AVABHASA: Tcha.
And so? Now that you are here, what do you have to deal with?
DEVOTEE: What I am most in touch with is how much I need You, and how I must make use of all the ways You have Given to us to Commune with You.
SRI DA AVABHASA: You are just not going to get into it, is that it? [Laughter.] What is it?
DEVOTEE: I very much appreciate . . .
SRI DA AVABHASA: I mean, what is it? What is the problem?
DEVOTEE: It is difficult to speak about it in Your Company, Sri Gurudev.
SRI DA AVABHASA: Why?
DEVOTEE: All the problems seem to be obliterated when I sit with You.
SRI DA AVABHASA: Then I will leave and come back later.
DEVOTEE: In Your Company, there are no questions.
SRI DA AVABHASA: Why do your so-called problems not seem equally absurd when you are not in My physical Company?
DEVOTEE: I just do not have the same humor outside Your physical Company.
SRI DA AVABHASA: You are supposed to have the same Heart-Master. You are supposed to be living alone with Me at all times. You are supposed to be practicing self-surrendering, self-forgetting devotional Contemplation of Me always.
DEVOTEE: I have felt more than ever that I am purposed to go through this process in Your Company, rather than fulfilling my particular karmas. Since You have Given those of us who live at Sri Love-Anandashram the discipline of fasting our intimate relationships for a period, I have observed more about myself. On the one hand, we fast our relationships with our intimates most of the time, but then, when we gather with You, You Give us the opportunity to associate with our intimates. Because of this, I have had the opportunity see both sides of my approach to intimate relationship. Strangely enough, this has magnified my awareness of my karmic addiction to the emotional-sexual search. I feel that attachment more strongly, almost to the point of feeling afraid of Your Call to renunciation.
SRI DA AVABHASA: As My devotee, you are supposed to be doing a very specific sadhana relative to seeking, are you not? That is what the listening-hearing process is all about. You are supposed to be going through the process of that sadhana, part of which involves self-observation. In the course of that practice, you must deal with the self-contraction that is the root of seeking, rather than simply seeking and running after your preferred objects.
DEVOTEE: I yearn for that place where I will feel the end of duality, the end of being the self-contraction, the end of the motivation that underlies all of my motions away, rather than staying in place. I feel the frustration of not being at that summary place.
SRI DA AVABHASA: What have you not observed about this matter?
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Remember, at heart with every breath, this paradoxical esoteric Truth of Siddha Da
I am speaking to everyone when I speak into the tape recorder. There is “nobody there”, except “somebody” with a tape recorder. Why is that? I am not just speaking to whoever is in the room with the tape recorder. I am speaking to everybody, literally. I meditate everybody. I am everybody. And I am speaking to everybody, and not to everybody as egos at all. I am simply Revealing Myself in “everyone’s face”. Adi Da 2008
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